Diaries of a Skeptic [3]

I don’t mean to be insensitive,
My resistance is not some school girl trick,
Love is not exactly my Forte—
I’m sorry I know I’m such a prick;

But if I were to put it in an equation,
Here’s how it would be,
Love+3 S’s=Negative,

For me it’s neither,
Safe, secure or sacred,
Love is just not for me…

Diaries of a Skeptic [2]: Will it End?

The matter of fact—
It’s quite simple,
YOU CARE ABOUT ME!
You may reject it,
And maybe if we’re lucky,
Your body may correspond,

But our eyes deceive us—naïve cat,
We’re sly in a convincing manner,
It’s kind of cute in an articulate way—I almost like it,
Oh no, Think I like it…
I’m starting to hate this feeling now—the complexity I mean,
It becomes hard,
To think, without thinking,
Of how my actions, could now possibly affect you,

IT STINGS,
This total submission—
I wish to distance from,
And my lack of experience leaves me helpless,
So now I’m called to ask,
Will it ever end?

Diaries of a Skeptic [1]: What happens when a Skeptic is Happy?

HERE ARE MY MANY ATTEMPTS TO DESCRIBE MY CONDUCT…

I’m perplexed, actually;
I was expecting to be in a dark state of mind,
However, I’m aligned by pure happiness…
My words seem to fall in place---
Perfectly, alive;

[???]

Quite perplexed—actually,
Expected myself to be under the weather,
Yet I’m aligned by pure happiness…

[???]

Not sure what it is,
My words seem to fall in place—in my mind—
Overthrown, crowned in peace…

[???]

I’m quite perplexed,
Aligned by what seems to be pure happiness,
Feels like I’m being tested.

[???]

I’m determined to write,
To write...
The perseverance of my pure happiness,
Despite my loss of words..

[???]

My mind...

[???]

Determined to write,
The perseverance of my happiness—despite my loss of words,
And complexity;

[???]

My mind is blank unfortunately,
It would have been nice to describe this feeling—empty,
My mind is empty with happiness….

[???]

OH, I GIVE UP!
I’m HAPPY!

FIN.